I know how to do this is just to do it, get it down, in spurts. I have problems getting things down on paper because I am scared of myself- yet I have no fear sharing anything I actually do get down. It’s a weird way to exist. I tried using social but its not a good media for me. Right now I’m living in a really cheap apartment with my boyfriend Jordan. We have nothing- no things. no babies. We aren’t social or cool. We don’t get paid a lot of money. I kind of feel like a lot of people don’t like me. but that would mean that people are thinking about me in any way shape or form which is also a not-given. All of this is ego driven but also what got me to quitting / failure so I gotta look at all of it.
After the fact, 20/20, I think that I was addicted to my business. I had a product that people wanted and that people liked but I was in debt and I didn’t know how to handle it. I couldn’t handle the debt and it wasn’t even that much. I just couldn’t do it. I didn’t want to. I didn’t want to suffer anymore. Imagine that, a lady who makes bread, suffering? Why would a lady with a bread business with a cute name suffer?
I QUIT EVERYTHING 