Baking

I have been hired by a restaurant group to make a bread that they can then go ahead and make themselves. I thought it would be easy. Why do I always think things are going to be easier than they are? I am having a really hard time. To make matters worse, when i told my mom that someone was actually paying me to do something I could not successfully earn money from in my 8 year run with Free Bread, she said “don’t you think you’re moving backwards?”

My first thought was, “Well even if I was, would you love me any less?” but I just got pissed off and told her I had to get off the phone. And wouldn’t you know it, the next day I felt so much like I was moving backward. Especially because the bread has NOT been going well. I owned a gluten free bread business for 8 years and I can’t even make a decent loaf of bread in my home kitchen. I am, shall we say rusty. very rusty.

It feels very unpleasant. But I did read something that said “do what makes you stop eating and sleeping” and for some reason it is gluten free bread. is that crazy?

I do a lot of googling, trying to find answers to how to live this life. I am constantly questioning my decisions. I am constantly doubting my abilities, doubting my strengths. How do I learn to stop doing this?