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Everyone is living in their unique experiences. Right now my mom is at the hospital with her boyfriend and his son. Right now Jordan is at his 9-5. Right now I’m contemplating my adulthood, my life choices, the way i behave and how I got to be that way. So I’m 44- I’ll be 45 in a month. I guess this is a midlife crisis. I am FINALLY understanding, seriously for the first time in my life, that there is cash flow, there is overhead expenses and there is time. This took me 8 and a half years to figure out and now that I am armed with this knowledge, how the heck do I use it to benefit my latter half of life (assuming I get one or a fraction of one)?! How do I want to spend my time in the this future? Baking bread? Writing a blog? Earning cash how?

I listen to a lot of podcasts because I can move my body while learning. One of the things that quitting the business has made me learn is that I can try to navigate my life in a more healthful way. For me, this doesn’t mean eating better or exercising more. This means listening to my thoughts and going slowly and trying to be patient with myself. I think that I require a good deal of physical movement of my body. I need to be able to stand or walk around during my productive hours. I quit smoking after I closed the business. I was smoking to keep the machine going. I still smoke too much marijuana but I feel like that will be easier to quit since I can knock out an addiction once every 4 years at this point. Don’t worry, I’m not taking up any more addictions.